One reason Utah isn't that bad

Autumn has finally begun.

Fall in Arizona is perfect but I do love the beautiful changing leaves in Utah. I'm actually getting excited to pull out my boots, jackets, and sweaters. Too bad I won't have anyone to cuddle up with, but this will just make next fall that much better!!

Sunday drive up Provo Canyon

i thank You God for most this amazing

Matthew always knows how to brighten the gloomiest day.

Today I got these

beautiful flowers in the mail.

In the card he said

he had been thinking about me

and he loved me :)

I am so grateful for a loving future husband

who always knows how to make things better.

Mmmm I love him more then anything

and I cant wait for him to come home to me.

I love the look of my name with his!

.........

So.

Matt left today.

And I already miss him.

Only 396 more days.

All you need is a good book

This book is heaven sent.

It's keeping me from dying of boredom and loneliness. If you haven't read The Hunger Games, repent and then start reading. Only about half way through and I have a feeling it's going to be a long night.

Finding Joy

Picture from here

So I felt like this past Sunday's sacrament meeting was just for me (Do you ever feel that way?) This RM gave the most wonderful talk about agency and I really love the way that he presented it. But the one thing that he kept repeating over and over that really touched my heart was "you can choose to be sad, but you can also choose to be happy." I know that seems really simple but at the beginning of this next year without Matt it's exactly what Heavenly Father knew I needed to hear... I can choose to be happy! So even though it will be hard, I will find joy in this journey and using the wonderful gift of agency I will choose to do everything in my power to be happy. I'm so grateful for this gospel and I know that even when it's just one simple phrase in a talk, that God will answer our prayers. He knows me and my struggles and I know that he can help me get through this so I can married in the temple of all eternity :)

:)

Isn't he handsome? I'm very sad he's leaving but he does look really good in uniform ;)

What can I say? :)

So that Friday (3/19) Matt called up Cami and asked if we wanted to go to a ward party with him. Since Cami and I are always up for meeting new people of course we agreed. But before Matt came to pick us up Cami said that I should drive in case it got boring we shouldn't be stuck there without a ride home. So we told Matt this when he came and we were just about to get into our separate cars when I saw it. His beautiful FJ Cruiser, the car i had been wanted for a long time. I couldn't help myself, i loved that car and i had to ride in it! So we ended up riding with Matt and having a great time at his ward party.

Isn't it pretty? :)

We made homemade pizza, watched the BYU basketball game and ended up getting warm and cozy on the couch :) I had definitely decided that I was going to pursue Matt and see what happened!

After the party, we ended up going to the hot springs with a bunch of people and having a crazy fun night. Somehow over the course of the night we exchanged numbers and after he dropped me off at home (at 3 am) I couldn't help but text him :) I said something about how I so wasn't tired after that awesome night and i was really only expecting for him to agree. But instead he asked if I wanted to learn how to drive stick shift, right then.

Of course i said yes! So he picked me up, we went to an empty parking lot and as soon as i get in the drivers seat a cop shines a flashlight right in my face. I guess he was worried that we were doing something illegal but after we explained he gave me a few tips and left haha. But i was totally freaked out and it was hard to concentrate on learning (especially with Matt sitting right next to me, laughing if I did anything wrong). Sparks had been flying the whole night and so when we got out of the car to switch seats, it was like magnets being drawn together. I couldn't hold myself back, we just had an instant connection and I knew that this would turn into something great.